July 16, 2009

Therapy for the Self

Everything happens for a reason. We win, we lose, others survive, some just give up... we witness various plights in this so-called life because we need to. Because for each single thing that happens, each resounds with a purpose. Most of the times, we know the answers to our questions. No one else understands us - our internal conflicts, the twinge we feel on our skin, and the voices that haunt our sleep - better than our very own selves. So listen carefully to what you tell yourself. Listen to the certainty that hides beneath hesitation. The answer is usually staring us straight in the eyes; we just got to look deeper. You know you can get through anything. You just have to believe in yourself. It's all about confidence and pure faith. Just trust that you can, and you will.

I have avoided conversations that might remind me of you, because days are going by so fast, and courage is quickly slipping away. I have been trying to talk myself out of this, scared for what-could-be another loss. But recently, I found strength. I'm not sure how long this will last, but for now, I know I can do this. I know that telling you how I feel is the right thing. And I know that honesty will never do me wrong. I just hope this is not about claiming the prize, and trying to prove something for nothing. I was fine years before you came into my life, and I know I will still be fine regardless of how things will end between us. And although my heart is never really sure of anything, I know I have to make the jump anyways. Like I said, everything happens for a reason. Maybe I'll land with a broken heart. Or maybe I might just learn how exciting flying can be. No matter what, I know I'll get through.

It is all about cognitive thinking. You know the answers. I know the answers. It is will power, and we just got to listen.

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